.::inside the mind of a psycho::.

hau'oli orsem 2005

2005-06-10T23:34:00.000+08:00

orsem experience is really something else... in one word: ECSTATIC... pure ecstasy... im euphoric and i just cant seem to find the words to express what im feeling right now...

day 1:
i woke up at 4am feeling oh so energized and excited, despite the fact that i barely had 3 1/2 hours of sleep... wen i got to the cov courts, maingay na, grabe tlga energy level ng mga tnt's kahit 530 p lng ng umaga, ang saya... iba ang feeling, lalo na wen the welcoming of the freshies began... all the tnt's were on our feet standing on the monoblocks, dancing to whatever was being played, kht slow song, sinasayawan pa rn...

the day went quite well, astig nga kasi kht first day, we had a great block pic, mukhang "bonded" na agad, pero that nyt, we got a real bad beating (well not that bad, pero tinamaan kasi ako sa mga cnbi ng core... ) i knew i had something more to offer, kht cgro sagad na yng gnwa ko nung first day, i really had to push myself more... i just thought to myself, i had 2 more days to make up for what i wasnt able to do... despite that, i was still able to enjoy my first day as a tnt...

day 2:
day 2 was the best... but it was also the last for the course blocks... nakakalungkot, just when the block was starting to open themselves up to us, that's when it all had to end... pero it's all good... masaya tlga ang block na nahandle ko... they were really a bunch of cool people...

i really wasnt expecting so much from the block i handled... pero i got more than what i expected... i love block y... they were the best... yea yea, i took a while before they opened up, pero, they made us tnt's feel really good... they were definetely THE block from heaven

day 3:
we had a new block to handle... english blocks nmn... mdyo nahirapan kami ni abu pero ganun tlga... it took time before they started warming up... even tho they weren't running during mob, it was all good... had a great tym pa dn...

ryt after o-night, nag-inuman na agad ang block Y! steeg hahaa!

to block Y: you guys are the best!!! y'all rock!!! steeg kayo!!!

mok, maita, bea, me, gerliz

anyways, i just want to thank my partners jo and abu!!! you guys rock!!! salamat dn sa laht ng mga tnts!!! chuga on!!! wohoo!!!

ugu bigyan

2005-05-26T13:51:00.000+08:00

ugu bigyan is one great potter... his works are beyond words... just take a look at these photos i took at his place in tiaong, quezon

the place was wonderful, tipong asa paradise ka...

pati si buddha parelax relax lng...

eto matindi...

ugu bigyan's place is located at barangay lusacan, tiaong quezon... daming pwd bilhin, just prepare some extra cash, medyo mahal, but they are all worth it... artworks tlga...

calendar-ing

2005-05-26T13:14:00.000+08:00

iv bin busy lately with this project for photography class... im done with it, sadly, that ended my photography class this summer huhuhu =(

cover page:

e2 lng yng mga medyo ok yng kuha, yng iba pangit hahaha... sa iba't ibang places ako kumuha, meron sa island cove, sa quezon memorial circle, sa casa san pablo, tska sa tiaong, quezon (ugu bigyan's place) pero yng iba di ko na napost, la dyan yng kuha ko sa tiaong, quezon...

yea yea, mdyo kabadingan yng subject hahaha no choice, yan lng madaling kunan, tapos palpak parn ako huhu... papractice pa ako... sisikat din ako!!! bwahahhahahaha (evil laugh)

im gonna be a pilot... (in my next life)

2005-05-20T21:43:00.000+08:00

iv always been fascinated with commercial planes... ang saya ko every time i see planes cruising through the clouds... lagi ako tumitingala kng may eroplano... i enjoy airport stays as well... weird pero ganun tlga ako hehe, usually we stay long in airports tlga, kasi lagi maaga nagchecheck in... ok lng, masaya nmn ako sa airport... just makes me feel so happy... hehe

it's been a while since i last rode a plane.. mga 2 years ago, papuntang cebu, dats only about an hour, kaya bitin hehehe... last international trip was like 4 years ago, papuntang singapore nmn... changi airport was something else, astig tlga... hehe it was the first time nakakita ako ng travelator sa airport kaya ok tlga.. u didnt have to walk to reach the boarding gates hehehe... bawas pagod

airbus currently released its A380... this is the largest commercial plane sa ngyn... galing ng airbus, inunahan ang boeing hehe... il get to ride this plane someday... hah! haay the more i think i about it, the more i want to become a pilot... maybe in my next life... hehehe may height requirement kasi hehehe...

copyrighted image

visit the airbus website for more info on its maiden flight...

so far, the planes iv been on are Northwest Airlines (mnl-narita-chicago-mineapolis-los angeles-osaka-mnl), believe it or not Emirates Airlines (mnl-hk-mnl) astig d2, e2 lng ang nakita kong short haul flight na may individual lcd screen each passenger sa coach, and Philippine Airlines (mnl-ceb-mla, mnl-dpl-mnl, mnl-hkg-mnl, mnl-sin-mnl)

i rily just had to write something about planes hehehe

sunset & silhouettes

2005-05-06T19:12:00.000+08:00

shot last monday (02 may '05) at the manila bay...

"rowing"

left: sunset
right: take a closer look at the jet streak... cool ei?! parang comet...

sana i get a higher grade for this... bhala na, bsta masaya ako sa mga kuha ko hehehe... sana nagustuhan nyo rn... hehe

naiinis ako, nagsayang ako ng pera kanina... nagpa-print ako ng 5R sa KONICA kasi 10php per copy lng... i ended up getting faded pictures, ng nireklamo ko (kasi i have proof since i have the contact prints, i knw how the pictures will look even before they get printed out), ang cbi b nmn eh ganyn lng daw tlga ang knla, epal, the customer is always right, so i should get recopies ryt?! pero ayun wala! i ended up having the negatives printed again at KODAK, 13php per copy, pero hamak na mas maganda nmn! the photos above were printed by KODAK...

lesson of the day:
sa kakatry ko magtipid, i ended up spending more wahhhh!!! nagiipon p nmn ako para sa galera! grrrr! hanggang ngayon naiinis pa rn ako sa KONICA!

just a thought... or maybe not...

2005-05-05T19:15:00.000+08:00

it is the fifth day of the fifth month on the fifth year of the second millenium...

roughly translated 05-05-05...

from the korean movie "how to keep your love" (or something like that)
"if people get used to getting rejected all the time, they forget about what they really want."

awww... struck me real hard...
we get rejected once in a while... we feel bad for being rejected... but just give this a thought, how about those people who have been rejected all their lives... what does it feel like kaya? but still they are hanging on... but do they still know what they really want? cguro they keep on trying just to prove to pipol na at least hindi sila nareject... la lng naisip ko lng...

personally iv not experienced this up until college... cguro, konti dati, pero yng nafeel ko lng tlga na malungkot, ngyng college lang... cguro nga tama yng cnbi sa movie... you cant help but think dat u'l never be good enuf, u'v loss every inch of hope that's left in your body, pero kht ganun, iba tlga, cguro din andyan ung animal instinct to "survive", kasi no matter how hard you fall, you still keep trying, pero...

hanggang ilang bangon ba bago ka makarating sa gs2 mo
at hanggang ilang hulog ang kaya mo bago ka mapagod bumangon?

un lang...

ilan ang adults?

2005-05-01T12:50:00.000+08:00

as we were entering the beach resort...

driver: (opens window)
resort employee: ilan po ang adults?
driver: (pauses) 3, 2 driver, yng isa asa kabila (pointing to the car behind us), tska yng katulong asa kabila din

(silence inside the van)

patty: EH DB ADULTS NA TAYO LAHAT?!

oonga nmn hahaha!

tumatanda na tayo... hahahaha

portrait

2005-04-30T17:40:00.000+08:00

this is the second portrait iv shot... id rather not post the other one, baby kasi yng subject...

aling anita: suki namin ng gulay sa palengke (del monte- kanlaon market)... fresh plgi benta nya!
(tsk tsk tsk camera shake... hold that camera still you fool!)

motion

2005-04-30T16:39:00.000+08:00

photography homework last week...

left: one hand- could have been a good shot, pero shutter speed too slow, sayang... (nice form terry)
center: barrel turn- ok din sana, pero again shutter speed too slow
right: fly- nice shot, "ok" cbi ni sir, "compromise shot" daw for him... (fly terry, fly!!!)

me: shot by terry, cropped by me to remove unsightly parts of the photo, still looked kinda awkward though...

thanks terry na pumayag ka.... hehe good thing you didnt have to do 36 cartwheels and one-hands hehehe! salamat ulit!

photographed by: dall (except the one with me as the subject)

batangas!!! wohoo

2005-04-28T18:45:00.000+08:00

leng leng:
a state wherein a person, having had too much alcohol in his/her system, passes out in the middle of the beach, begins to act weird, barfs at any given time, lies on the shower floor, and unintentionally irks people around him/her with his/her never fading smile... =) (wala akong pinapatamaan dito... hahaha not! hahaha alm mo kung cno ka haha)

ang mga nangyari sa batangas ay iwanan sa batangas, pwera na lng ang kay tina bwahahhaha! ( in the words of tina: "I FEEL SO VIOLATED...") hahahahaha

went to batangas sunday 24 apr- monday 25 apr 2005...
here are some pics from the trip...

leng leng pics...

left: sa beach nung gabi (c tina nakapeace, nung tinanung nung umaga kng bkt, ang cbi nya "ayaw ko kasi magpapic" hahaha)
right: tina, ako, kim (pawisan ako! hahaha)

sa beach...

left: feeling models yng mga asa likod hahaha (kasama ako dun..)
right: may sungay c kim courtesy of dodo, ako nmn naka bleh

right: sunbathing (mah fav pic!)
left: snorkeling (mukha kaming mga biktima ng lumubog na barko hahaha!) kaya malabo kasi may fingerprint yng lens hehehe sayang...

more pics of our batangas trip

d ako umitim kahit na nagbilad na ako sa araw... gumamit pa ako ng suntan and tan amplifier pero ayun wa epek! hahah sa uulitin, sana nmn umitim na ako hahaha!

ang bote ng coke

2005-04-27T19:29:00.000+08:00

2 weeks ago, i started photography classes... i'm using Canon EOS 5 (borrowed from my cousin), film pa ako, kaya medyo magastos tska hassle, pero it's all worth it... masaya naman ako kahit na pagod at butas ang bulsa...

first "on the spot assignment": find a coke bottle and photograph it as if it wasn't a coke bottle...

pumunta pa kaming UP to find coke bottles, d na kasi uso bote ngyn, puro na in can hehehehe

here were my shots that day...

starring ang kotse ko d2 hahaha... yng isa kong frend kinunan yng coke bottle as tambucho ng kotse ko hehehe... astig db...

ateneo at night

2005-04-26T18:26:00.000+08:00

i had to take pictures of ateneo at night... had a hard time, since bawal gumamit ng flash, patibayan sa paghawak ng button... umaabot ng 2 mins, 3 mins, etc etc... nakakapagod... they're kinda blurry though, sira kasi tripod ko...

left: "not so long and winding road" / "lollipops" (c/o louie hehe)
right: "into your hands"

left: "road less traveled"
right: "light"

it's been a long time...

2005-04-09T21:15:00.000+08:00

its been a long time since i posted something on my blog... i guess i was just lazy to write anything (if ever there was something) happening to me...

went out a while ago to have lunch with high school friends... it's patty's birthday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY PATTY! you're way past teenage years hahahahaha... yan special mention ka d2 sa blog ko! haha had a great time.. we had lunch at FINIO, food was great by the way... miss ko na tlga highschool... ibang iba...

had a great tym with my seatmates shal and shobs...

shal, ang payat payat mo na, d na kelangan mag-gym hahaha... sa ONE ka na lng para masaya hahaha pero ang layo sa inyo hahaha

shobs, wala tlga akong ikkwen2 kasi wala naman tlga hahaha... ikw tlga hahhahah... ikw old maid, ako old hmmm... ano ba tawag dun? old driver? bwaahhhahaha corny ko!

here's a pic of us kanina... il post more once i get dem...

finio (t. morato): andun ako sa tabi yng nakawhite haha... syempre nasa harap ako ng isang 6 footer, edi lalo akong nagmukhang maliit haahahah!

went to gateway afterwards to catch a movie hehehe, pero before that uwi muna sa haus ko to leave the car hehe tapos nakisakay n lng ako kina patty hahaha....

we watched a movie kht na matagal kaming hindi nagkta, weird, kasi galit galit pag asa movie house walang usapan, eh yun nga yng nakakamiss, pero nagenjoy naman ako kay spongebob kahit na no brainer at nakaka baba ng IQ haha...

Patrick Star: MINDY! Did you see my underwear?
Mindy: No Patrick.
Patrick Star: ...Do you want to?

PATRICK for president!!! tangina ang cute ng gagong yun hahahaha!

quotable quote from the movie SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTS: went something like this...
"you have to be a man to be a MANager... or else they'll call you KIDager" d ko masaydong maalala pero ganun din yng meaning hahahaha!

classes start on thurs... i think...

i get my grades by monday... haay.. bhla na c batman...

a day to remember haha

2005-03-17T00:02:00.000+08:00

well yeah, just a breather from my mind-cracking, heart-warming(?), psychotic posts... hahah just thought i'd write this...

i got my final finals (did i make sense?!) on friday, at syempre save the best for last... huhu statictics po (current standing C+, to maintain that C+ i have to get at least 141 i think for the finals, assuming we got a 100 for our project)

just finished theo finals a while ago... sayang, im still hoping for a B+... pero unfair tlga yng grading system, u get 2 As, 2 B+s, 1 B, and to get an A u have to get a 96 sa finals?! normal b yun?! haay gnyn tlga...

CS defense went ok, kht ayaw magreflect ng changes when we transfer balances... at least may grade na kami ni katz... (tnx katz for doing the code.... mwahhhhhh!!!)

got my advisement slip a while ago din, hopefully i get the classes listed on this piece of paper worth a hundred bucks(kht nakaprint lng sa scratch paper), pero mukhang malabo dahil ang swerte ko nmn tlga pag dating sa random number, 1244 out of i think1273 (c louie yun hahahaha!) yun lng...

summer classes nanaman... well until then, magpapaka bum muna ako d2 sa bahay... hahaha

depressed ang loko

2005-03-16T01:11:00.000+08:00

ala una na at gcng pa ang loko! tangina tlga!!! CS + Stat + Theo = suicide!!!

tangina 100% tlga...

You scored as Unipolar Depression. Congratulations! You are depressed! You know just how it feels to bear all the world's burdens, and the value of a 19-hour night's sleep. And you really hate that circle-guy thing on your Zoloft pill packets.

Unipolar Depression

100%

Eating Disorders

67%

Borderline Personality Disorder

67%

Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder

58%

Antisocial Personality Disorder

42%

Schizophrenia

42%

Which mental disorder do you have?
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naliligaw pa rin ako

2005-03-13T23:16:00.000+08:00

im not happy, i never am...

im in the middle of nowhere... i still don't know where im headed, and i don't even know where im at... but this is the road i chose, i guess i just have to go on... not knowing what will happen next...

gnyn nmn tlga... cguro nga lahat tyo naliligaw sa buhay na ito, pero may ibang masaya kung saan man sila naligaw o niligaw ng tadhana...

unncertainties of life, yun ang exciting, kahit minsan tangina pero ganun tlga... it's life's surprises that make this game more exciting... kelangan may happenings din tyo sa buhay ntn para nmn hindi boring...

sa dinadaanan ko ngayon, wala pa rn akong nakikita... makatapak man lng sana ako ng kung ano para nmn may mangyari kaht konti... masyadong tahimik tong lugar na to...

pucha tinamaan na naman ako ng topak... bhla na...

my epitaph reads:

"he lost, but it was a nice game and he played it well..."

paikot-ikot lng yan...

2005-03-12T19:57:00.000+08:00

nothing's permanent in this world... so they say, d only thing permanent is change, pero what if u couldn't cope with the changes that's happening around you... hirap kasi pag nasa ok na state ka na, you wouldn't want things to change, then bigla babagsak ka nnmn sa baba...

the only thing u find comfort in, is the thought that at least, somehow you WERE in a better place... kahit sandali lng yun, at least naexperience mo...

cguro nga i already had my time... (joan if u happen to be reading this... we had our time, time nmn ng iba ngyn... )

paikot ikot lng yan...

alone

2005-02-24T20:54:00.000+08:00

i find peace when i'm alone...

masarap mapag-isa... if we just take the time to look around, you'll find peace in everthing, sa mga puno, sa hangin, sa ulap, sa langit, kahit sa mga langgam... weird but true...

the irony of it all, no one wants to be alone... pati ako, i hate being a loner, but i want to be alone... so hard to deal with what you want and what you need... kasi cguro lagi pumapasok sa isip ntn, what other people would think... it takes a lot for one to realize it's not important what other people think of you, but what you think of yourself...

when you're in the middle of nowhere
it's hard to find peace within
but once you do find that peace
that's when you'll realize
you're somewhere afterall...
- dall -

taken during the great ateneo traffic (circa feb 22, '05 )
my 1st real attempt to photography...

scribbles

2005-02-24T19:59:00.000+08:00

some quotable quotes...

"you eat to live,
you live to eat..."
makes sense to me...

"sometimes it's better to be killjoy
than to be killed by joy..."
- ariel and maverick -

still waiting for my turn...

2005-02-23T23:10:00.000+08:00

just when you think you've hit rock bottom, that's when you'll realize it gets worse, really worse... things aren't always how we expect them to be... so cliche... as much as i want to think that way, hindi tlga kaya eh...

they say someday somehow, you'll get to have your time...

i'm still waiting for my turn...

Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go
So make the best of this test, and don't ask why
It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

So take the photographs, and still frames in your mind
Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial
For what it's worth it was worth all the whileI

t's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

- time of your life -
- green day -

broken sonnet

2005-02-21T18:31:00.000+08:00

sometimes, it would be better to put off your dreams just to be happy... so sad to think that though we have dreams, most of them, if not all, remain just dreams...

i caught something on tv a while ago, and it made me realize that il never get to where i want to be... im always not good enough...i'll never be...

im living for the moment, sometimes it would be better if you just live each day as it comes, no worries bout the future, pero syempre in this world, hindi nmn pwde yun, lagi u have to think of the future...

i remember yng friend na nabanggit nung lit prof ko nung 1st yr, sarap ng buhay nun, he was a bartender sa bora, tipong yng sweldo nya sakto lng para mabuhay sya, kng medyo magipit, balik sa parents... ok din yun ganun... sana lng we all have the luxury of living that kind of life

for me, the happiest people int his world are those who know how to deal with the shit of this world... tska syempre those who get to have their dreams fulfilled...

malungkot pero masaya...

And now i concede
On the night of this fifteenth song
Of melancholy, of melancholy
And in this next line
I’ll say it all over again
That i love you, i love you.

I don’t care what they say
I don’t care what they do
‘cause tonight i’ll leave my fears behind
‘cause tonight i’ll be right at your side.

Lie down right next to me
Lie down right next to me
And i will never let go
Will never let go.

The clock on the tv says 8:39 pm
It’s the same, it’s the same
And in this next line
I’ll say it all over again
That i love you, i love you.

I’ll leave my fears behind
‘cause tonight i’ll be right at your side.

But still i see the tears from your eyes
Maybe i’m just not the one for you.

- broken sonnet -
-hale-

heard this song on the radio while driving to school last week... my current fav...